Remember..

Just seeing you standing there is my own happiness. Yes, this is my own happiness. The moment that reminds me when we are just two, when we have some words to talk about, when you keep your smile to me and when I hold my eyes on you to see how wonderful you are. Did you remember it? ..

I remembered one particular moment, one particular event which I don’t want to mention it. The event which is right now to be your soul and your identity. I know that you love it so much just as me. It hasn't been my identity, not yet. But you've managed it. And because I know you’re so meant to be there, I know it. Thus I call you wonderful creature. The event where we met. Of course, a lot of people but I didn't remember them I just remembered you.

I don’t know the reason why you are so stuck on my mind. Perhaps it is because my memory capacity is so bad. Therefore, I can’t remember the others. Or because I have no idea about them. The question will be still why it has to be you..

You..Why are you so different than the others? Why do you have to take a part of my mind till I am not able to provide the other one for others? Why are you so meant to me? Why are you so special?

What make you so special?

Going around of my mind, I can’t find what the answers for those questions. And just looking for the answers can make me suffered from headache and catalepsy which cause me  to be a passive stone without some moves. The questions which seem to why the color of the sky is blue. Why the ocean is so wide and deep or why  there must be afternoon and night. The answers will be nothing. Absolutely it is nothing, low creature like me can’t reach the possibility why it is like this or why it is like that. That’s why some people and perhaps me call this a fate..

This fate also brings me to find you once more. I know it. I know it will happen. I know if I bring my heart to you again. But remember, there must be two entities, black and white, small and big, life and death. Two things which are indeed different but they can’t be separated. If there is a thing which I know , also there must be a thing that I don’t know. I have already known some things and this is my turn not to know some things. And do you know my dear, this lack of my knowledge has brought me to some pains..

I didn't blame you nor the fate. I just felt disappointed not because you nor because the fate that brought us in a memorable place that I couldn't forget but because my thought..

I am not that able to control my thought and my heart...